Freaking out.

Posted on May 31, 09 Filed under mind, body & spirit 4 Comments

Well, it’s 10:13pm, the night before I start my new job. I’m sitting watching The Biggest Loser USA, whilst Michael snores on the couch (insisting that he’s watching the TV) and the cat is on his lap.

What gets to me is why I get myself so worked up about things that I really shouldn’t be worked up about. I have the worst nerves about starting my job tomorrow, and whilst I know it’s normal to be freakin’ out a little, to be as nervous as I am isn’t normal. I know that I’ll get there tomorrow, get somewhat settled, and it’ll be fine, but getting there is the difficult part for me. And there are aspects of this job that I know I won’t enjoy – I’m sure that would be the case for every job – but I guess I’m afraid that I’m going to allow the things I don’t enjoy overpower the things that I do.
I seem to always do that – in my last job, I let the fact I hated being on the phone overpower the fact I enjoyed the rest of the work and the people I worked with. And I know that there is phone work involved in this job too – although probably not on the same scale of my last job – and it terrifies me.

Anyone else get over a fear of talking on the phone? What are your hints and tips? I rationally try to tell myself that it’s not that big a deal (which, of course, they aren’t!), but I can’t seem to overcome this emotional fear of talking to someone at the end of the line. The only people I don’t have this fear with are my fiance, my parents and my siblings. That’s it – I can’t even talk to my friends or extended family comfortably on the phone. Maybe it’s the prospect of someone at the other end giving me bad news, I don’t know! But I have a fear and I need to get over it in every aspect in any way possible.

Anyway, I don’t know if this makes any sense to anyone, and honestly, I don’t care if it does or not, because I’m just typing away and letting it come out of my brain. Hopefully this will calm my nerves a little, at least to the point where I’ll be able to sleep.

I can haz employment?

Posted on May 29, 09 Filed under rave 3 Comments

YEH I CAN HAZ!

I got a job! Finally, after almost 10 months of job hunting, I’m finally employed. I am now a Legal Secretary at a local Law Firm. Can we say ‘Woot woot’?!

I start on Monday, 9:00am. I’m a little nervous, but I guess that’s normal when you start any new job. I’m anxious about being overwhelmed, but again I think that’s normal

My emotions are pretty much summed up here:

Weight Loss Progress #3

Posted on May 26, 09 Filed under home, mind, body & spirit 7 Comments

Just before heading to a moot. Probably not the best shot for a weight loss shot, since I’m a) wearing black and b) am posed sideways, but whatevs.

Nothing Special (still)…

Posted on May 25, 09 Filed under general, home, love, mind, body & spirit 4 Comments

I am still not doing anything hugely important. I feel lame for not blogging, but there’s nothing really to write about. Right now, I’m sitting in front of the TV with my laptop, watching The Biggest Loser and talking to Michael. He just got back from the weekend in Melbourne for his mum’s 50th birthday. It was kind of nice to get some time apart, but I’m glad he’s home.

In the last couple of weeks, I’ve been blessed with the job of taking over ‘Graphic Designer’ role for the Tasmanian Pagan Alliance, Inc. newsletter. The original GD, who had been in the role for 10 years, quit due to time and internet restraints, so I put my hand up straight away. I managed to pump out the latest newsletter, which was running late, in under 24 hours, so the State Coordinator and the Editor of the newsletter were really impressed with that – it makes me feel good to know I can contribute even more to this group I’m a part of.

Um so not much else to mention, other than mentioning the new endeavour that Catie and I have undertaken – check that out at Beauty-U. I’m meaning to post more there but the other things I’m doing (housework, Pagan Alliance stuff, etc.) have taken priority. I’ll try to post a couple of vids or blog posts this week.