Well, it’s 10:13pm, the night before I start my new job. I’m sitting watching The Biggest Loser USA, whilst Michael snores on the couch (insisting that he’s watching the TV) and the cat is on his lap.

What gets to me is why I get myself so worked up about things that I really shouldn’t be worked up about. I have the worst nerves about starting my job tomorrow, and whilst I know it’s normal to be freakin’ out a little, to be as nervous as I am isn’t normal. I know that I’ll get there tomorrow, get somewhat settled, and it’ll be fine, but getting there is the difficult part for me. And there are aspects of this job that I know I won’t enjoy – I’m sure that would be the case for every job – but I guess I’m afraid that I’m going to allow the things I don’t enjoy overpower the things that I do.
I seem to always do that – in my last job, I let the fact I hated being on the phone overpower the fact I enjoyed the rest of the work and the people I worked with. And I know that there is phone work involved in this job too – although probably not on the same scale of my last job – and it terrifies me.

Anyone else get over a fear of talking on the phone? What are your hints and tips? I rationally try to tell myself that it’s not that big a deal (which, of course, they aren’t!), but I can’t seem to overcome this emotional fear of talking to someone at the end of the line. The only people I don’t have this fear with are my fiance, my parents and my siblings. That’s it – I can’t even talk to my friends or extended family comfortably on the phone. Maybe it’s the prospect of someone at the other end giving me bad news, I don’t know! But I have a fear and I need to get over it in every aspect in any way possible.

Anyway, I don’t know if this makes any sense to anyone, and honestly, I don’t care if it does or not, because I’m just typing away and letting it come out of my brain. Hopefully this will calm my nerves a little, at least to the point where I’ll be able to sleep.