I was inspired by Jess’s latest post to reassess my reason for having this site. I’ve paid enough money for it, but I rarely seem to even use it. I might drop in on my site every now, think that I should blog, and that’s as far as it gets. I should have some other purpose for this site, but then what more can I do on a site called ‘Terri.nu’?! It should be about me if my name is the domain name!

So I’ve decided that, like Jess I suppose, I’m going to try and write more purposefully on here. I want to draw on my experiences to try and bring some realisation to my life, some understanding and some purpose.

I don’t know if that makes sense many (or any) of you, but I think I know what I’m trying to say. I want a place – a sanctuary – to write out my thoughts, as profound or not as they may be, and to reflect on what I’m thinking about.

Should I or should I not retire my monroe piercing?

I got it something like 2½ -3 years ago and while I still like it, I don’t know if I *love* it anymore. I sometimes look at myself in the mirror and think, “Why the fuck did I do that?”. My nose piercing is something I’ve had since I was 15 (holy fuck, 7 years?!) so that’s really a part of me, but I don’t know if the monroe is.

So what do you think? Majority rules – if you honestly think I should remove it, say so. If not, then say so. I won’t be offended so please give your honest opinion.

I thought it might be about time that I posted another blog entry, even though it’s rather obvious that I won’t be posting every day in August now.  I started off the first week, and then ran out of things to talk about.  I guess that happens when every day is the same old shit, day in and day out.

I don’t mean to complain – I love my life right now; I have a great job, a wonderful home, a loving husband and all those things that make life awesome – but I still feel like I’m lacking something.  I don’t like routine, and thus my job tends to get me down.  Not because of the work, but because of the routine I have to go through every day: get up, have breakfast, have a shower, brush teeth, do hair, put on makeup, get ass out the door, then go to work, lunch at 12:00, back to work, go home, eat dinner, browse the net, go to bed.  Rinse and repeat.

I think I’ll feel better about everything once I get my provisional licence (Ps)– I will be able to drive to work and not have to rush my mornings (another thing I hate is rushing and being put on a time limit).  I’m halfway to getting my Ps now – over halfway, in fact – and my dad mentioned to my mum that I’m “driving bloody good”, so to get Dad’s tick of approval means a lot, and gives me that much more confidence. I have to do 50 hours supervised driving, and I’ve got 23hrs 45mins left now.  If I do three hours driving a week, I should be ready by mid-October.  And considering we’re nearly in September already now, that’s not too far to go.

I do worry that I’m going to fail the test, but it’s not so much the failure of the test as losing the money I would have spent to take the test – it’s almost $76 to book and take the test, and if they find something wrong with your vehicle, you automatically fail before you even drive!  Then, you lose that money and have to wait 28 days before you can go again.  So that’s my main concern in this whole ordeal.  Otherwise, I’m pretty confident.  Do need to work on parking though, particularly reverse parking.  I think the odds are in my favour, because I’m older than most people going for their Ps (22 rather than 17 or 18), and chances are I’ll be taking the test in my work clothes, which means I’ll look a little more professional than most.  And while that shouldn’t matter, I think it will play a part in making me appear a responsible, sensible adult (which I like to think I am!).

I’m really looking forward to the freedom driving will give us.  I mean, not having to rely on someone to take us to and from the grocery store will be awesome!

Anyway, there’s my ramble for today, to keep you up-to-date.