Should I or should I not retire my monroe piercing?
I got it something like 2½ -3 years ago and while I still like it, I don’t know if I *love* it anymore. I sometimes look at myself in the mirror and think, “Why the fuck did I do that?”. My nose piercing is something I’ve had since I was 15 (holy fuck, 7 years?!) so that’s really a part of me, but I don’t know if the monroe is.
So what do you think? Majority rules – if you honestly think I should remove it, say so. If not, then say so. I won’t be offended so please give your honest opinion.
There might be some stuff mentioned here that’s TMI. So, sorry, but you’ve been warned.
1. I need to declutter my life. My house is so full of stuff – just stuff – that I don’t need or that isn’t organised. We’ve been in our house for almost two months and I still have numerous boxes to unpack. For the stuff we need to keep, I need to get shelves and such.
2. In relation to above point 1, I need to organise myself. Mentally and physically. No wonder I have such a hard time finding things when everything is such a mess. I need to downgrade, and put things away after using them. Everything needs a place, and if there’s no place for it, get rid of it.
3. I need to lose weight. I don’t mean fast and I don’t mean unhealthily – I am just sick of looking in the mirror and seeing fat rolls and huge thighs. I don’t want my thighs to rub together anymore. I want the freedom of wearing a skirt without the tops of my thighs chaffing.
4. I want money. I need to learn to put some aside, to save some. I’m so terrible when it comes to money – it’s like, I earn some, then think what an awesome job I’ve done, and go out to buy myself something. I’m then left with nothing again. If we want a family, I need to save money.
5. I need a sanctuary. A corner of a room with a comfy chair and bookshelves-galore where I can just chill and not worry about the mess (see points 1 & 2) that surrounds me.
6. I want more time for my Craft and my spirituality. I have always seen myself as a spiritual being, but the last year or so, I’ve felt very alone spiritually. I feel I’m not spreading my wings, grasping for more – I’m simply sitting stagnant. I’d love to be personally coming to some of the conclusions and realisations that, say, Jessica Mullen and Kelly Cree are coming to in their lives.
7. I want a better ‘personal’ life. Yes, I mean sex. It’s not terrible, but it could be better. I’m so tired most of the time that I can’t be bothered – another reason for me to lose weight – I want energy and drive. I feel bad when I’m not ‘up to it’. We’ve gone from 3, 4 sometimes 5 times a week to maybe that per month. Time to improve that area.
8. I need and want space. Being in a loving, wonderful relationship for so long (close to 7 years) has been an absolute blessing, but I need some time to myself sometimes. This is something Hubby doesn’t quite understand a lot of the time – he feels it’s me getting bored with him and any discussion about this sort of thing ends up in arguments. But I’m so independent in my nature that I need this breathing space. I’m an Aquarian!!! And there’s going to be less of a chance of this once we start trying for a baby, so I want this time while I can have it.
9. I want satisfaction. I want to be 99.9% satisfied and happy with what I have, and right now, I’m probably sitting at about 50%. And by what I have, I don’t mean material items. I want to be healthy, know where I’m headed in life, and happy with my current situation.
So I bet you can’t guess what I got up to today 
I went for a walk early (well, early for me) this morning with my mum and a family friend. We trekked for about an hour, and it was a good walk because it had a good variance in the terrain, and was a lot easier on the way back, which I like! We’re going again on Wednesday, and then we’ll make further dates from then.
Also, I got my first 21st birthday present today – Wii Fit! I wanted it from my parents, but asked if I could have it before my birthday, so as to get fit for the actual day. Mum agreed and we bought it today – it’s so much fun! Trying the yoga positions and stuff really made me realise how unfit I am, but it’s pushing me to do more, which is exactly what I need.
I’m still on the job hunt. “What?”, I hear you ask. Yeah, I did have a position lined up with a design company. The thing was, I’d had 2 trial days with them (one ‘official’, one not) and didn’t feel completely comfortable on either day. Normally (and this is how it was with my last job) if I’m going to fit in, I am comfortable on the first day, or at least after the first couple of hours. My official trial day was a 7 hour day, and I couldn’t wait to get out of there due to the tension in the air. There were a couple of other things that I don’t want to mention on here due to their being somewhat incriminating, but I might mention them at a later date.
So yeah, still looking for a job, and still waiting on my ABN to come through in the mail so as I can start doing webdesign work a little more legitimately, as well as have the ability to actively seek out clientele. I’m really looking forward to that.
I think that’s about it – I was trying to work out a new layout for Inspirata but I’m totally attached to this one right now. If anyone wants to make me one – *puppy eyes* – I’d love them forever!
